So, I welcome the tide of change, once again. Things have really changed for me, and what I am getting used to, is the result of that change. I've grown out of need into wants, and it's taking me some time to get used to that. I've never had that before in my life. For now, and hopefully the future I am in a real state of growth. And it is taking me some time to get used to. I'm getting to enjoy 'hobbies' I've only dreamt of and I love it. There has been a learning curve to all of this, and of course I wanted to be super efficient and not waste, but unfortantly I have. I'm not perfect, but that's okay. I'm getting better.
It's very wild/bizarre to be able to say, with money, hey it was part of the learning curve. The end result will justify it, I believe.
This year is going to be great, have a lot of things I'm looking forward to. My hobbies, and my professional life are going to upgrade, and I look forward to the procress, and the results. It's so (no word comes to mind) when you find yourself, 'happy' and not looking for anything (person, place, or thing) to fill that void. I am finally able after 33 years to be able to be. And what I'm learning now is, the vast majority never find this. I have to remind myself how good I have it now, at this moment. I'm so used to my biological parents, and how they fuck everything they touch, and I learn from them how quickly you can lose it. It's taken me a long time to get here.
My biologicals have been great role models of how not to behave or act towards any human being. For that, I am grateful.
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