Proof

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10242034/

 

Good quote

Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it.
  - Ellen Goodman

Only a matter of time

It was only a matter of time, I suppose:

 

     Spam blogs, sometimes referred to by the neologism splogs, are

     Web Log (or "blog") sites which the author uses only for

     promoting affiliated websites. The purpose is to increase the

     PageRank of the affiliated sites, get ad impressions from

     visitors, and/or use the blog as a link outlet to get new sites

     indexed. Content is often nonsense or text stolen from other

     websites with an unusually high number of links to sites

     associated with the splog creator which are often disreputable

     or otherwise useless Web sites.

    

     Splogs have become a major problem on free blog hosts such as

     Google's Blogspot service. These fake blogs waste valuable disk

     space and bandwidth as well as pollute search engine results.

     ---Wikipedia

 

If you're a blogger, and especially if you use the Google tools for blogs, it'd be good to get yourself up to speed on this new form of spamming:

 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Splog

http://www.splogreporter.com/

http://fightsplog.blogspot.com/

http://www.fightsplog.com/

http://www.google.com/search?q=splog

 

When the president talks to God

BRIGHT EYES LYRICS

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/9287434/

"When The President Talks To God"

When the president talks to God
Are the conversations brief or long?
Does he ask to rape our women’s' rights
And send poor farm kids off to die?
Does God suggest an oil hike
When the president talks to God?

When the president talks to God
Are the consonants all hard or soft?
Is he resolute all down the line?
Is every issue black or white?
Does what God say ever change his mind
When the president talks to God?

When the president talks to God
Does he fake that drawl or merely nod?
Agree which convicts should be killed?
Where prisons should be built and filled?
Which voter fraud must be concealed
When the president talks to God?

When the president talks to God
I wonder which one plays the better cop
We should find some jobs. the ghetto's broke
No, they're lazy, George, I say we don't
Just give 'em more liquor stores and dirty coke
That's what God recommends

When the president talks to God
Do they drink near beer and go play golf
While they pick which countries to invade
Which Muslim souls still can be saved?
I guess god just calls a spade a spade
When the president talks to God

When the president talks to God
Does he ever think that maybe he's not?
That that voice is just inside his head
When he kneels next to the presidential bed
Does he ever smell his own bullshit
When the president talks to God?

I doubt it

I doubt it

 

Check out the video here http://www.ifilm.com/ifilmdetail/2670176?htv=12

 

Get the song here for download

 

http://www.saddle-creek.com/bands/brighteyes/

 

Isn't it crazy

Underling words are itlaizixced because you cannot underline on this blogger.com
I am typing this in because I don't know how to host files. If someone who reads this would be willing to host the pdf ver of this, I have it. I scanned this in and made it so I would never lose this.
I have copied this letter verbatem, so all grammactical errors or misspellings are due to the original author.

Dear Matt,

I have begun this letter to you many, many times. I hope you will read this and know it is the truth from my heart to you.
I have always loved you with a deep and lasting love and always will.
Since the day I first learned you were to be, I anticipated you with a profound sense of joy & happiness as I did with your brother, Lance. You were exactly the baby boy I dreamed about.
I took excellent care of myself when expecting you, no alcohol, drugs (prescription or otherwise) that might harm you. I wanted the very best for you as I do now.
What has been woven together can not be unwoven.
You will always be my son, whom I love & cherish. I will always be your mother.
Matt, there is nothing you can do or say which would prevent me from loving you or thinking about you often, always keeping you in my prayers and dreams.
I have learned many truths during the last two years. I know that a broken heart bring me to a place I know for certain I am not in control of anything! I have learned the profound truth, I am not able to depend on, money, hardwork, love, health or relationships to sustain or protect me.
It is only through the love, grace, strength and power of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ (for all eternity) that I am able to accomplish anything, be forgiven of everything and to bare all things in this life. It's all the things above:
It's not who I am,
That makes me unique.
It's not what I say
That makes you listen when I speak.
It's not the way I place my feet,
when I walk your way.
It's not the way I talk about Jesus,
when for you I bow and pray.
It's not the way I use my voice,
when I praise and sing.
Or close my eyes to worship
the awesome King of Kings!
It's not the love I have for you,
when I hold your hand.
It's not my tears that are shed,
when, by your side I stand.
It's not when I pray you through,
a time of pain and dread.
It's not the long, lonely nights I cried,
over words that have been said.
Let me tell you what it is ....
as if you cannot see,
It's ALL the things above ....
Because it's my God, in me!
Looking back, I know I did not know how to parent you. I always thought love would be enough. But, I was wrong. I should have taught you by love and example to live your life
"Train up a child in the fear and admonition of the Lord and when he is old, he will not depart from"
According to God's instruction and Principles. It was a hugh mistake and I was wrong, we both paid dearly.
I regret the many mistakes I have made with regard to you. I am so sorry for things I did or did not do; things I say (there is no strikethrough) said or did not say; anything I've done that caused you saddness or pain. I would sincerely and humbly ask you to forgive me.
There are so many things I wish I could say to you, I wish we could talk about, share, & laugh together again.
I really believe it all comes to this; not having you in my life or being able to share yours is the single most difficult, painful experience I have ever know in my life.
I would ask you from the depth & breadth of my being to allow us to begin to build a new relationship, one based on love, honesty, mutual respect and trust
I know all of this would take time. I don't think it would be easy especially since trust has been broken. I am willining to take the first step. Would you take the Second step?
God's word says, "Love covers a multidue of Sins"
I will always love you as long as I have life. I would be willing to get together anytime, any where on your terms.
Please let me be a part of your life again. I would truly like to be Mother to you as you are now, an adult.

Katrina

May God have mercy on your souls, for all those who could have helped, and brought aid and did not.

Would someone please explain to me RSS?

Would someone please explain to me RSS?

What is it and how do I use it? What is it supposed to look like when I am done?

Okay here I go

1st the picture below download it and it looks a lot better than it does on my machine.

2nd This is Friday Sept 9th 2005 this link shows a lot. I am saddened by all that voted for Bush and his administration. I am. I like everyone here, for the most part I've know most of you through here for 6 years and I do like you. It disgusts me that Bush won and now is especially aparrent.

This is how I feel most of the time

I'm so drunk

I hate paying my shit! I’m broke! I’ve been out of work for a year for my own reasons, and for what ever justification I have I hate being so behind on bills!!!!! I hate the word BILL! Any derivation of it!! William, Liam fuck you ALL cocksuckers I am so loaded at this moment and when I sleep I will forget. Every week I send out at least $300 U.S. currency plus my own for gas which is $2.55 a gallon fuckers, food, clothes, etc… I just owe and owe people, people I’ve never even met. My own laziness gets in the way of my own life, and I hate it. Sucks!!!!!!!!! I just want to live and experience and it costs. Thanks for the money that I owe you and here it is. Today I sweat like a whore in church for what, so I can pay for shit I can’t even remember. What I do remember is the one who makes me happy. I love you even though I don’t think you even know it.

Seti/Boinc

Are you looking for a Seti team? The Boinc project well check out http://www.team-scifi.com/ sign up, join the forum and meet a group of wonderful people.

 

Priceless. Again if you are this woman, or know this woman please email me.
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You might have to expand the photo, its worth it, hilarious
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A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. And I am doing my part that people see it all over the world. If you are this woman, please email me.
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Woops!! Theres no way of playing this one off
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London

My heart goes out to the London family/friends that lost someone today, or was hurt. The world mourns for you. I cannot stand that such evil is allowed to move in this world in such a way. I cannot understand why anyone would want let alone do such an act. This is just detestable!!  I know for me as an American, I really don’t know what to do in my daily life to help fight, prevent etc. I feel un-empowered and these meager words here are so small. I just wanted to get it out, and I know others are praying, and thinking, and doing something at this very moment. Again ‘We’ of the human race that believe in freedom from tyranny support you all the way.

 

One ought never to turn one's back on a threatened danger and try to run away from it. If you do that, you will double the danger. But if you meet it promptly and without flinching, you will reduce the danger by half.

Sir Winston Churchill

 

We shall not fail or falter; we shall not weaken or tire...Give us the tools and we will finish the job.

Sir Winston Churchill, BBC radio broadcast, Feb 9, 1941

 

Never, never, never, never give up

Sir Winston Churchill

And she is just money
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I love her
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I am trying to figure out how to send several at a time using this software
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I love this woman
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Thought the chick in the middle had a nice rack
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I don't feel so good right now

I believe I spend a lot of time wasted on frivolous things. Worry, the ‘what should I do’, putting shit off I don’t like. Something of late has begun to bother me. Choice. It’s a real bitch. Life that you choose to live under whatever circumstances. Someone out there reading this, tell me your thoughts on this, please. It’s hot and late, and I should go to bed. I am also sending this through email and want to test it out.

 

Ahhh I’ll go to bed.

Lost

I have recently discovered torrents, and how to use them. I have downloaded Lost and Desperate Housewives (don't worry ABC I am not selling them and planning on buying the seasons respecitvly when they come out Sept is to far away). I am big big fan of Lost. I don't know why I am so nuts about it. I know it's television, and I know the more I type about it the more it reveals about me. Thus I am typing more. Excuse the grammatical errors. Two parts of me about this show, finding the LCDs of everyone, 'figuring it out', and what/why I find so captivating about it. I can't think of any t.v. save X-Files, and not even that show have I become so enaroumed by. Is there something missing in my life? The characters, the setting. As I watch this series unfold again, in order (it's nice not to have commercials) and see how these people's lives (I know it's ficiton) entertwined and how they depend on each other. I keep thinking of my life, how I've come to be here and now. It's sad that I have to get it from a tv show, but the important thing is I get something. I 'feel' like I recoginize.


Something my brother told me today, has really hurt me. He's hurt, and I contributed to it. I am selfish, very selfish. I have to make it right, if he will let me I will. If my mother is reading this ---- At least I am doing something you deserve all you get!

It's been a while

It's been quite some time since I've posted so here goes, let's open this baby up and see what she can do!

I am sitting outside on this nice cool morning, just getting around on Father's day, a little sunburned. It's going to be nice not to be 'fish belly white' but I got to go thru a little pain first. My latest 'new' to me jobs I believe is going to hire me on permenatly (I believe). I dropped by my bosses office and he said 'We need to get together and talk about a few things next week'. So I hope it's good news. It's really nice working somewhere you half way enjoy. Makes life a lot more bearable. At least it doesn't just SUCK!!!

Oh about the coolest thing I've done here lately, is I finally applied to Survivor. Yup, I sure did. So right now I got about a 1 in 500,000 chance of making it to call backs. Cost me 42$ to send in all the materials needed, but I don't know.

Oh that's really another thing that's been on my mind here lately, Budgeting. I mean all the time and not just with money. I am not sure where it comes from, the need to do it, other than you really can get more accomplished if you do use it, and I guess that's what grown ups do.

It seems rather lame not doing anything, other than takin care of bussiness. I am getting on track of all my finances, so that's nice the monkey is getting smaller, been spending as much time with my girlfriend as I can, basically getting back on track and workin on the tan.

I am not sure where to drop these on my blog so I am going to throw them here for now

Oh Jessica
Jessica video
This is a cool site
This is the team I am on
Will put a better link spot to you guys
This for Craig

Save the original Star Wars

Just found this on the web, and wanted to share it. Hopefully Google will pick this post up and someone might just land on it and use it, who knows? Below you find a link to a petition asking George Lucas to release Star Wars, the non special edition on DVD. It would be incredible.

Sign this petition!

This is cool

Bible Verse of the Day

Try again

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I am testing something out, and it doesn't look like I can remote link

Hope quotes

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle.
--Plato

The learning and knowledge that we have, is, at the most, but little compared with that of which we are ignorant.
--Plato

At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet.
--Plato

The above is something I have really come to believe!!

The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof. -- Barbara Kingsolver

Hope is the last thing that dies in man; and though it be exceedingly deceitful, yet it is of this good use to us, that while we are traveling through life it conducts us in an easier and more pleasant way to our journey's end. -- François de la Rochefoucauld

He who does not hope to win has already lost. -- Jose Joaquin Olmedo

When you do nothing, you feel overwhelmed and powerless. But when you get involved, you feel the sense of hope and accomplishment that comes from knowing you are working to make things better.--Pauline R. Kezer

Each man is capable of doing one thing well. If he attempts several, he will fail to achieve distinction in any.
--Plato

The part can never be well unless the whole is well.
--Plato

More ranting

Well I am 'here' again. I am now forced to see 'a' world in which I have created. It sucks!! I've hung all of my hopes and dreams that by getting my bachelors degree with my work experience I would be able to land a job I wanted, make decent money and begin a career. Instead, for the last 11 months I haven’t really worked, now doing a job I haven’t done since I was 18, and getting the joy of driving 30 minutes 1 way to do it. This sucks and I can’t seem to come up with a working viable plan to get out of it. All I really know is I am ‘stuck’ here until I do. I just don’t want to end up like my mother!! God HELP ME!!!

Seems like by now I should be ‘grown’ up and know what it is I want to do. And I know there are a lot of people out there regardless of age, that don’t. Not comforting to me. I’ve tried to just relocate and ‘enjoy the scenery’ helps for awhile. Man some people make it look so easy!! Bastards. Seems to me that I’ve fallen down, and not real sure how to get back up, or if I really want to, and I guess I’m just bitching, but hey this is my blog and I can cry if I want to. Stop reading, and I can’t even imagine someone reading this. Is it this painful for other people too? Do they just have a support group of some kind?

Things I am not good at that are becoming grossly apparent:
1. What do I want to do with my life?
2. Learn to manage my life more like a business, i.e. this is not working so stop doing it and do something else
3. Forgiveness
4. Getting a job. Seems like thus far, I have just gotten ‘lucky’ and hoped something landed for me I like. Which is really the last 10 years of my life. So taking a more active role of ‘control’ if that’s possible. My girlfriend assures me it is.
5. Being organized
6. Wanting to want to _____________ Feel in the blank. Besides hedonism, and the here and now, not much do I want to do. Although that has even gotten real old. Even sick of my speech.

Writing is very theraputic

You know as I write these, and realize that there MAY be an audience, I do slow down and think abit. This in and of itself is a real rarity for me. I try to chose my words and little more carefully, and think 'we'll why did I write that'? There seems to me to be always another question. Today was a really boring day for me, YES they do happen, even to me, OH the HUMANITY!!! I got to see and old friend, and listen to some very crappy karaoke. I don't understand why almost everyone has to fall into 2 very broad catogeries. One you think you belong on American Idol OR you drone on and on, and you have to sing more songs over and over like that. Are you living out the fantasy that you were chosen to be the next Elvis or Madonna? I mean hell then I should go ahead and live out my John Holmes, Peter North fantasy then. No time like the present. I swear I've seen and watched a woman tonight (again I am insanely bored or I wouldn't even be typing this) and she was at the point of "Gonna need some more audio on this channel, my earpiece it's no good, I CANNOT work under these conditions. She was acting to me like a DIVA" and yes I am guilty of juding, and yes if I didn't like it I could have left. I can tell you I won't be going back there again on a Saturday night, please for the love of God please don't let me/make me. I guess it's one of those things you have to experience.

And another thing, what is the strange alure power ANY rap song has over white women. Instantly they go into Girls Gone Wild. I mean don't get me wrong I love it, but just about every Country/State/City I've been to, it holds true well over 90% of the time. It just blows my mind. Thank you ladies! We love to see you get naked and have no rythem. It's awesome.

Writing CAN BE therauputic, I also need to get some professional help. Seriously

Don't Quit

W. Churchill quotes at the top, I really would have liked to have met him.

Never give in! Never give in! Never, never, never, never - in nothing great or small, large or petty. Never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense.

Never, never, never, never give up.

Any man who is under 30, and is not a liberal, has no heart; and any man who is over 30, and is not a conservative, has no brains.

Everyone is in favour of free speech. Hardly a day passes without its being extolled, but some people's idea of it is that they are free to say what they like, but if anyone says anything back, that is an outrage.

All the great things are simple, and many can be expressed in a single word: freedom; justice; honor; duty; mercy; hope. (I would add to this Love, my oponion, maybe these are only derivations thereof)

Saving is a very fine thing. Especially when your parents have done it for you.

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.


When things go wrong as they sometimes will.
When the road you’re trudging seems all up hill.
When funds are low and the debts are high.
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow –
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out –
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far:
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit –
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

- Author unknown

Whomever is posting Anonymously

Please leave an email address, or name or some contact info so I "contact" you back. I setup my blog with Anonymous so people who aren't familiar with "computers" (and all that entails) could leave something, BUT SOMEONE has me very intrigued. Please send me an email, mrmccarter@yahoo.com or something thanks. I want to ask you, or talk to you personally, won't leave your info on here. Thanks and hopefully you will send me something

This song says it all

After reading this, and you want to hear it, rent Shall We Dance, you will hear it around the end of the movie, OR buy the CD. I am NOT advicating you download it off some P2P program like Kazaa, wink wink.

I think this song is so amazing! This song resonates something within me. It really says it all for me, from where I am anyway. I feel so compelled to share it. This song is something you must experience in your life. I have no answers for what happens next. I am not sure I want to 'rush' and find out myself. "It" is something that has me speechless, and you have to try it for yourself, and once you do, you will know.

Artist: Peter Gabriel Lyrics
Song: Book Of Love Lyrics
The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything
The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I
I love it when you sing to me
And you
You can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
You ought to give me wedding rings

Ok I have a really lame blog

I would sure love to jazz this baby up (this being this blog) and I am thinking I am way into my head. I anaylze to the point of doing nothing, how's that for irony. Might as well save myself the thinking time, and then do nothing. Who knows? It's all meaningless. Anyway, can't think of much have traveled, will be traveling again soon. See you on the road! And yes, the road is long, trying to find something to leave and something to take. What's the point of doing _________________?

Meaningless

Okay I have been stuck on this topic for quite some time and just wanted to get this "out". I would like any feedback on this from anyone that has any suggestions.

Any help with meaning of life.. Thanks

Do all answers given illustrate author only?

General idea of what I am thinking of
General quotes that I am thinking of
A book I want to read
This looks promising
Start here

This is the final drive I made
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Finally back

Above you will find a close approximation to the final drive I made. Left March 1st and got back Mar 23 very early in the am. The final denumont being a 1200 mile push from Ogden, UT to home. So here it is. I don’t recommend anyone driving that far by themselves. Not for the faint of heart.

Ok just looked at pictures

Just looked at the pictures from another computer and they are DARK these picz came out just fine for me, so... On this monitor there is no way to make it darker but I think it's the monitor so... Best of luck, on my laptop there fine. Any suggestions leave a comment. Oh yeah and arrived safe in Portland, OR. And yes, you can NOT pump your own gas, even if you want to.

Some thoughts to think about

Hatred does not cease by hatred, but only by love; this is the eternal rule.

He is able who thinks he is able.

Your work is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself to it.

What we think, we become.

The only real failure in life is not to be true to the best one knows.
Buddha

More Picz

Okay I wanted to add some more photos on here, and without resending some of them again on a painfully slow dial up I am trying my hand at HTML so here goes. This will open a new window and take you to More of Cali and this will take you to Cali so there you are everyone. I sure am ready to get out of here.

Note to self, DO NOT TRY CONSTRUCTION WORK AGAIN So my hat is off, my hand extended to all those who can and do, this type of work. It's a lot tougher than it looks.

And I've also learned to appreciate clean running water, and if you want it hot and or cold you can have that. When you lose the ability to shower, and wash your hands whenever you want I sure do miss it. Northern California is amazing, extraordinary, sublime and should be something everyone who wants to anyway see once in there life. The Pacific Coast Drive is awesome oh 1 more link route I took, or almost really it went to Long Beach, West Hollywood, L.A. and up through Malibu so anyway. Tommorrow I leave for Portland, hang out there, then on to Seattle and see Craig, and Microsoft, WOOHOO!!!

DASMN!!!!

Well tonight I got done leaving Constatine the movie here in Crescent City, CA. Quickly found out there is nothing to do in this 1 pony town on a Sat night. Went to this place called Toreno's (sp) and it was as big as a phone booth with 3 people in there, mid worn out women, and didn't want to pay 2$ cover for nothing so.... After listening to some advice that I journal my trip to the north west US I decided to look on the web for a few ideas. WOW!!! I got sidetracked like a lot of people do I am sure, and found these 2 sites, which I am blown away, finding like minded people, what a relief I'm not alone, http://www.edsgonesouth.com/ and http://www.vagabonding.com this being my favorite of the two. What a cool guy. So anyway, I am here in the RV with a little heater trying to stay warm, reading up on blogs, missing the whole point of journaling, trying to get an idea of how and missing the point of doing I don't know? This is beautiful country, and I am just a little _________ don't even know the word of what I've learned since being here in CC. The trip out has been amazing, learned a LOT as usual. Getting out of OK and getting, aahhh yadda yadda yadda. 2 more days of blue collar work and I'm on my way to Portland, OR. Pretty cool. Never been. Then on to Seattle, WA to meet up with my best friend, and apply at Microsoft, and see Canada. Haven't been to another country in almost 4 months (thanks Dad). Looking forward to someone posting something back, or emailing. And there are some cool blogs, and some really cool people doing what I want to do, lucky son's of ....

I can say I never thought I would be staying in an RV, in northern California, trying to stay warm, dialed in thru a free AOL account on my own laptop, writing a blog, this is definitly a first

This forest was just amazing, the trees up here just go on forever
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Here's a tree you can drive thru
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I FOUND IT!!!!
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This is me in San Francisco at a cool Irish pub at Haight and Ashbury
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Well this is my first online journal

Well I'm here in Crescent City, CA, and after only a week here I am leaving in 2 days. It's a good and bad thing.